a week Before my accident, I shared with my small group that i was jealous of people with a riveting testimony. A life story where God changed them in a powerful and profound way. Growing up, I had lived what I thought to be a relatively uneventful life. I felt my story contained nothing that would have an impact or make a difference in other people’s lives. A week later my life changed in a dramatic way. God gave me a testimony. he gave me a story. One that just a week prior, I was “jealous” of. And as long as i'M able to, I want to tell it to whoever will listen.
My name is Jeff Huxford. I am husband to Jacqui and father to Jayse and Jenna. I was a family practice doctor in DeMotte, INdiana for ten years. I was raised on a farm in the small town of rosedale, indiana. I grew up in the church. I graduated high school, went to college and med school, got married, moved to Tennessee and completed my family practice residency, got my first job as a family practice doctor and moved to Northwest Indiana with my wife and 4 month old son to start our lives. I was living the American dream and things seemed to be going “my way.” During this time, I never strayed too far from God or the church and was what others would call, a solid christian. But after some reflection over the past few years, i had been confused about what it means to be a christian. I had been following the “inverted gospel.” I claimed to be following Jesus, but I had invited him to follow me.
I didn’t come to this realization without an intervention from God. On May 3, 2012, I was involved in a near-fatal car accident. on that day, god decided to give me a second chance at life. he went on to orchestrate a miraculous recovery that only he is capable of. my most significant, and permanent, injury from that day was a severe traumatic brain injury (TBI) caused by My head striking a concrete utility pole. MY TBI HAS AFFECTED NEARLY EVERY PART OF MY LIFE.
For the first few months following my accident, I recovered quickly. I had the expectation that this would continue, and I would soon get back to my pre-accident self. This didn’t happen and led to many emotions including depression, anxiety, and bitterness. I wasn’t sure how to handle these. I heard from others how wonderful I looked. They were glad I was back to “100%” but I knew that I wasn’t. I couldn’t understand God’s plan in all of this.
It was about this time I went to a conference with my wife and heard a talk that spoke to and changed my heart. I can’t even remember who the speaker was or what is topic was, but he read the following passage:
“I know your deeds, that you are neither Hot nor cold. I wish you were either one or the other! So, because you are lukewarm-neither not nor cold-I am about to spit you out of my mouth.”—Revelation 3:15-16
I am sure I heard that verse growing up. When I heard it, I would be thinking to myself, “Man, I would hate to be one of those guys.” Now, I’m thinking, I am that guy! This was a wake-up call!
At this time, I started to see God’s plan in all of this. My life wasn’t spared due to my good deeds rather because of God’s grace and power. I was living as a “lukewarm” Christian. My eyes were opened, and my heart started changing. God had a greater plan for my life, a plan where I came to the end of me and I surrendered myself to him. It is a daily journey where some days I grow closer to God but other days I slip back in to my former selfish ways.
These words from the apostle Paul in 2 Corinthians 12:7-10 (The Message Translation) have been a constant reminder of God’s love and presence in my life. It has also changed my perspective and helped me find purpose during this time.
"Because of the extravagance of those revelations, and so I wouldn’t get a big head, I was given the gift of a handicap to keep me in constant touch with my limitations. Satan’s angel did his best to knock me down; what he did in fact was push me to my knees. No danger then of walking around high and mighty! At first I didn’t think of it as a gift, and begged God to remove it. Three times I did that, and then he told me,
My grace is enough; it’s all you need.
My strength comes into its own in your weakness."
Once I heard that, I was glad to let it happen. I quit focusing on the handicap and began appreciating the gift. It was a case of Christ’s strength moving in on my weakness. Now I take limitations in stride, and with good cheer, these limitations that cut me down to size-abuse, accidents, opposition, bad breaks. I just let Christ take over! And so the weaker I get, the stronger I become."