"You hypocrite, first take the plank out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to remove the speck from your brother's eye."
Perseveration is "the repetition of a particular response, such as word, phrase, or gesture, despite the absence or cessation of a stimulus, usually caused by a brain injury or other organic disorder." This malady did not spare me. It is something I have been dealing with since my TBI.
There have been many ways perseveration has manifested itself in me, but one, in particular, is getting fixated on something I find bothering. This leads to repeatedly putting myself up on a soapbox and ranting about whatever is bothering me, with my very patient wife typically being the unlucky recipient. The one I have been on for quite awhile is my frustration with people who are seemingly all talk. People who don't back up their words or beliefs with any substance, or even worse, their actions contradict their claims. These are the people who are "affectionately" know as hypocrites, posers, phonies, frauds, fakers, etc.
Now, I have to be completely honest with you, I figured out the reason these type of people irritate me so much. It's because I have a tendency to be the very person I am venting about.¹ This revelation is changing my life. As I began to truly understand the gospel, I realized that despite my hypocritical tendencies, God still loves and accepts me. And if that is true, then I should stop being so frustrated by these people, but should treat them the same way God treats me.
I would like to report to you that at the very moment I figured this all out, I repented and immediately stopped judging all the people I felt to be hypocritical. This would be a misleading and disingenuous statement.
But the gospel, which is for EVERYONE, is helping me resist the temptation of judging others. It is forcing me, instead, to look in the mirror at myself. When I do this, the gospel gives me the power to change and I can start to erase my own hypocrisy.
¹ Psychological projection is "a theory in which humans defend themselves against their own unconscious impulses or qualities (both positive and negative) by denying their existence in themselves while attributing them to others."