Do you remember the day we met? It was May 3, 2012. Actually, I don't remember the day, but that's when you first met my wife, two children, and many of my friends and family.  I started getting to know you a few weeks later. But at first, I really didn't understand you all that well and didn't realize how much you'd change my life. 

Don't get me wrong. I'm grateful that I'm doing so well because I know you have left others far worse off than me. But you have affected everything about me. You changed my life in ways I could have never imagined. You eventually took away my ability to be a doctor and I have since became a blogger, author, and public speaker. I mean, somedays I have a hard time recognizing the man in the mirror looking back at me.   

I was really hoping that one day we'd part ways but as I was writing this letter to bid you a fond farewell, I realized you weren't going anywhere, so I guess I need to make the most our new "partnership." I know there'll still be days I'll tell you to leave, but I'm going to try my best to make you feel more welcome. Because you know what, and I know it's going to sound crazy for me to say this, but I'm starting to think you could've changed my life for the better. 

You see, before I met you, I really thought I was "somebody." I thought I had a good handle on my life and could deal with most things on my own. After you showed up, it was a different story. I couldn't do it all anymore so I began getting help from many different people. This included friends, family, doctors, and therapists. But most importantly, it wasn't until after you showed up that I finally understood my need for Jesus.  

I started to see Jesus for who He is and realized who I was not. I had been so busy trying to please God and earn my salvation with my "good" behavior, but finally understood that I can never do enough and Jesus has already done it for me. He is all I need. And when I stopped trying to do it all by myself, I started finding true joy, peace, and contentment. Yes, you changed me, but Jesus came in to my heart and this changed me more than you ever could. 

I still wish there could have been another way and I'm sure God would have preferred that as well. But just like the cross was the only way we could be made right with God, maybe you were the ONLY WAY for me to find the real Jesus. I can't believe I am saying this, but if that's the case, I'm actually glad we had the chance to meet!                                                                                                                           


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