Dear Brain Injury,
Do you remember the day we met?
It was May 3rd, 2012.
Actually, I don't remember that day at all. But that's when you first introduced yourself to my wife and two young kids, as well as many of my other friends and family. I didn't start getting to know you until a few weeks later. And at first, I didn't understand you all that well. I didn't realize how much you'd change my life. But you have changed everything about me. You changed my life in ways I could have never imagined. I mean, there are many days I have a hard time recognizing the man I've become.
Now, please don't get me wrong. I'm grateful to be doing as well as I am. I know you have left so many others far worse off than me. But I was still really hoping that one day we'd eventually go our separate ways. But as I was sitting here writing this “goodbye” letter, I realized something. You aren't going anywhere! So I guess I need to start getting used to having you around.
I know there's going to be days I get tired of dealing with you and I'll just want you to leave. But I'm going to try my best to make you feel more welcome. Because you know what, and I know it's going to sound crazy for me to say this, but I'm starting to think you might’ve changed my life for the better.
You see, before I met you, I really thought I was something, that I had a good handle on my life and could deal with most of the things thrown my way. But after you showed up, it was a much different story. I couldn't do it all anymore and I had to start getting help from so many other people.
Most importantly, it wasn't until after we met that I finally understood how much I needed Jesus. I started to see him for who he truly is and came to realize who I was not. You see, I'd spent most my life busy trying to please God and earn my salvation with my "good" behavior. But I finally began to understand that I can never do enough and that Jesus has already done it all for me. He really is all I need.
So, brain injury, there's no doubt you've forever changed me in more ways than I can count. But I'm actually glad we had the chance to meet because I believe you were a way for me to find the real Jesus, and he has changed me in more ways than you ever could have!
"You intended to harm me, but God intended it for good to accomplish what is now being done, the saving of many lives." Genesis 50:20